So I told Nature Girl to go ahead and sign up for Patrol at school for next year. That's right--I've given up the idea of homeschooling her for next year.
Sigh.
I'm not very happy.
But it's ok. I need to pay off my debt, I've got a great job (well, an ok job) dog walking now, and it would give me a chance to get that monkey off my back, finally. And, it would help the family for me to be less stressed. AND, she likes school and wants to stay for 6th grade.
I swear I'll yank her if her attitude or behavior deteriorates. I swear I will.
Sigh.
Saturday, April 30, 2011
Sunday, April 24, 2011
Happy Easter!
I love Easter.
What a victory! What a JOY! What a blessing.
The older I get, the more I am exploring and learning--about life, about love, about faith. I don't have it all figured out, that's for sure. Don't know anyone who does. The women at Well-Trained Mind forums have opened up my eyes to so many new terms, new ways of looking at God, new ideas. Actually, they are very ancient, old ideas that are just new to me.... I have learned about Reform Theology, Pre-and Post-Millenialism, Eastern Orthodoxy, etc., etc. I know where I stand on a lot of theological things now, things I was never exposed to in my small, Episcopalian world. It's wonderful!
But more binds us as Christians than separates us. Christ himself is the binding. Christ himself is the center that holds.
I LOVE EASTER, because I LOVE JESUS, and am so very grateful for what the Living God has done for me and for all. I lift my eyes to him and all the hard things fall away.
Hope your life is blessed by the Lord Jesus Christ, Very God of Very God, Redeemer, Saviour, Creator, the Hope of The Nations, The One True God.
What a victory! What a JOY! What a blessing.
The older I get, the more I am exploring and learning--about life, about love, about faith. I don't have it all figured out, that's for sure. Don't know anyone who does. The women at Well-Trained Mind forums have opened up my eyes to so many new terms, new ways of looking at God, new ideas. Actually, they are very ancient, old ideas that are just new to me.... I have learned about Reform Theology, Pre-and Post-Millenialism, Eastern Orthodoxy, etc., etc. I know where I stand on a lot of theological things now, things I was never exposed to in my small, Episcopalian world. It's wonderful!
But more binds us as Christians than separates us. Christ himself is the binding. Christ himself is the center that holds.
I LOVE EASTER, because I LOVE JESUS, and am so very grateful for what the Living God has done for me and for all. I lift my eyes to him and all the hard things fall away.
Hope your life is blessed by the Lord Jesus Christ, Very God of Very God, Redeemer, Saviour, Creator, the Hope of The Nations, The One True God.
Friday, January 21, 2011
Today is my birthday
Such as it is. Godly Man has to be at a Diocesan Convention all. day. long. Sky has to work, leaving me with Nature Girl (Film Buff being at college, of course). Don't get me wrong, I love being home alone, and I love being with Nature Girl! But I am a woman who likes rituals and rhythms, so not having a birthday family celebration is hard on me.
Usually the Birthday Person gets whatever they want for dinner, and then opens cards and gifts. Tonight, I'll take Nature Girl somewhere, maybe to see a movie or something, and we'll probably just eat Buffalo Chicken Bites and fries from the freezer. No cake, no candles, and no gifts.
Sigh.
I am getting older. I am getting to the point where I realize my life is not made up of other people, not dependent on them for feelings of wholeness or happiness--but that's not how I really roll. I am selfish at times, but other-centered much of the time.
The trick for me is how to be whole and complete in the Lord, yet available to others--how to be open to influence and feelings from those I love, vulnerable with my emotions yet not so influenced by them that I become enmeshed and cannot separate who I am from who "they" are. For so long, I based my emotional life on those around me. Now I know better, but I still struggle.
So, happy frickin' birthday to me--LOL
It still matters that my hubby can't be with me, my kids are largely unavailable to celebrate with me, and I want my usual--but I will suck it up and go with the gifts I have-- today. Blue sky, sunshine, time with my daughter, etc., etc.
Usually the Birthday Person gets whatever they want for dinner, and then opens cards and gifts. Tonight, I'll take Nature Girl somewhere, maybe to see a movie or something, and we'll probably just eat Buffalo Chicken Bites and fries from the freezer. No cake, no candles, and no gifts.
Sigh.
I am getting older. I am getting to the point where I realize my life is not made up of other people, not dependent on them for feelings of wholeness or happiness--but that's not how I really roll. I am selfish at times, but other-centered much of the time.
The trick for me is how to be whole and complete in the Lord, yet available to others--how to be open to influence and feelings from those I love, vulnerable with my emotions yet not so influenced by them that I become enmeshed and cannot separate who I am from who "they" are. For so long, I based my emotional life on those around me. Now I know better, but I still struggle.
So, happy frickin' birthday to me--LOL
It still matters that my hubby can't be with me, my kids are largely unavailable to celebrate with me, and I want my usual--but I will suck it up and go with the gifts I have-- today. Blue sky, sunshine, time with my daughter, etc., etc.
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